I think I have paranoid schizophrenia? -
01-15-2009, 09:47 PM
I'm 13 years old and I often feel like everybody is watching me at school or whatever. like, everybody is just.. spying on me. this only started recently, maybe 8 months back. Recently I keep hearing voices in my head. Me and my friends were on the Ouija board like a year ago and we met these 7 spirits. they were really nice and stuff. Well, i am always hearing them in my head. they compel me to do things and sometimes make me refuse to do things. sometimes i just want to scream because i feel like they just won't checkup this part is really strange, but i have these fake butterflies all around my skylight in my room and at night, when the moon shines through my skylight They make a weird shadow and I feel like the butterflies are just.. i don't know, trying to contact me? i feel like i hear them whispering in my head or whatever but I can't make out what they are saying..
also, when it's rainy and windy, and I'm near a window, the hissing of the wind freaks me out. makes me feel like some thing's screeching outside. Like it's going to.. huh... grab me? This happens a lot in science class. me and my friend sit at a table together, and there's a huge window behind us. plus it rains a lot where I live..
I didn't think this was very weird. i thought this kind of stuff happened to everybody. then me and a group of friends went and saw the movie 'the roommate' and I'm not like Rebeca i don't obsess over my friends but i looked up schizophrenia and i was like, 'oh my gosh.. that's.. me??!1?"
I'm very uncomfortable talking to strangers about this, but it's more comfortable than talking to my mom about it..
I don't burst out in public places with any sort of attacks or whatever.. I'm not weird.. i have a lot of friends and stuff and everybody thinks I'm super normal.
I just read this over, and it sounds really fake Hathaway. but seriously, I'm not lying.
and i didn't make my question clear enough. what I'm basically asking is, a I schizophrenic, and if i am, is there anything Should do about it?
i would just like to say my sister's friend is schizophrenic and knew she was schizophrenic before she visited a doctor and was diagnosed with it, so yes, people can know they have these things.
no no, the spirits that talk to me are real. i met them on the Ouija board.
and the butterflies, i like them. i realized they weren't real when i saw the roommate.
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