Could these be early signs of schizophrenia, or is it nothing? -
08-04-2009, 10:51 PM
Early last year/ late 2009 (I don't really remember) I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety. But over the past year I have noticed things.
First, my memory is horrible. I went through the whole day today thinking it was Tuesday, when it is Wednesday. When I was in college I would forget what classes I had. I will get up to get something off a shelf and forget what I got up for by the time I get there. Things like this
When I was driving the other day I thought the car behind me was following me. I changed lanes and turned on random streets and everything. There are also periods of time where I think other people can hear my thoughts. And I sometimes think I am being watched. But the thing is, this never really lasts very long. Like when I was driving it was maybe only 15 minutes before I calmed myself down and realized no one had been following me. They aren't prolonged delusions.
My dreams are really vivid and sometimes I confuse them with reality. I had a dream where my father died and I went to his funeral. I had to drive to my parents house in the middle of the night to convince myself it hadn't happened.
I have no motivation suddenly. Not even to do things I used to enjoy, like play video games, read a book, or watch TV. I'm taking a leave of absence from school. I sleep most of the day and the rest of the time I do nothing but listen to music and go on line. I just can't get myself to do even the simplest things, like get up to turn on the light or make myself something to eat. I never leave my room and I talk to no one but my close family, and that is only because they are talking to me. I have become increasingly sensitive to light and sound. I had to change my light bulbs to 40Watt bulbs and I only left one in. I catch myself just staring at my wall or computer screen at times.
When I mentioned the dream thing on a message board, someone said that he had the same thing, but that he was schizophrenic, and that is what made me look into the symptoms.
When I just look at a list of early signs, I fit all of them. But the thing is, part of me thinks I am just making it up and am drawing connections where there are none.
What do you guys think?
I was on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medications, but I haven't been on them for over 3 months now. At first I thought this might be the case, but would I still have symptoms like this after being off them for 3 months?
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